Sunday, April 19, 2009

Catching my breath



The last two weeks have been a blur for me. I had no idea all the 'stuff' you had to do when someone died. I am so very grateful for all the wonderful family and friends that have been there to guide me, advise me, make me laugh, and to lend me a shoulder to cry on. It has not been easy, but I can't imagine making it at all with out all these wonderful people! I have stacks and stacks of beautiful cards from friends all over the country....and some from people I don't even know! It is amazing to me the outpouring of love that has come to my family. Thank you!! Here is a picture of my parents and my siblings. I can't remember when we have every been all together at MY house. It was a treat.
This last week, we were in Arizona for the burial of my husband. I decided to bury him in Taylor, AZ because my ancestors settled that part of Arizona and several of them are buried in that same cemetery. Besides, when and if the kids and I move that way, we will be able to visit his grave. Taylor is 3 hours away from most everyone that came to the service. We had quite a group there. The wind was incredible! I think a few of the people that came were actually blown home afterward. wow!

After we did the ceremony, we went to the local LDS church for a light luncheon and visiting. I was really treading softly to avoid crying my eyes out. It was tough, but good friends helped me through. My friend Michelle drove from California the day before, 6 hours! and then the 3 hours more to Taylor. She is the best! I hung out with her and Kimber at the luncheon. Dear, dear friends. After the luncheon, we went back to see the filled in grave. The wind was brutal, and cold, and filled with sand. I went out for a quick peek and Ben ran after me. I explained to him that under the dirt was daddy's body, but his spirit was up in heaven with Heavenly Father. He looked at me and said, "He'll be alright.". No doubt in this little guy that his daddy would be fine. It was such a comfort to me. I am so grateful for my children. They are the best!



We spent the night in Holbrook....check a map...I dare ya! It will be just a speck! then we headed home to my sister's house. The kids had a good time with their cousins, especially riding on their quad. What a treat! They rode for hours.





My sister's house was also fun because she actually has chickens! Doesn't live on a farm or anything, just has chickens in the back yard. I'm not sure how impressed Mae was of this one...they are huge! I guess my brother in law knows how to keep them in line. He is the 'rooster.' LOL He is actually letting the chicken grab his ring, but it sure looks like he is treatening her!

9 comments:

Rachelle said...

Oh, Becky. I'm glad you've been surrounded with friends & family. I've been praying for you & your family & will continue to. (((hugs)))!

Cheryl said...

Support from family and friends really is wonderful. Also that way you can spread the tears around and gain a great deal of solace. Hugs to you an your family.

Shari Bielefeld said...

What a wonderful picture of your family! Love the pic of Mae and chicken!! So glad you are home. : )

debsdialogues said...

So glad there were some good things about this last week - Ben's insight, cousins, friends and family. Oh, and those incredible chickens!! Glad to have you back on our turf now!

Michelle Tweedy said...

I loved seeing you in AZ. Selfishly, my hope is that you end up in AZ so I can see you more often! And that wind nearly defies description! I was covered in grit...even in my ears! Yuck!

Jenni said...

Beck, so glad you were surrounded by loving family & friends. Wish I could have been there. Are you moving back to AZ? Continuing to send love and prayers to you all!

Gayle said...

Hi Beckie...
Just wanted you to know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I'm so glad you have such a great family and circle of friends to buoy you up at this time. You are such a strong person. I admire that and wish you all the best and continued support at this time.
Please let me know if I can do anything for you guys.
Gayle Moore

Erin said...

Sweet Ben. :) And Maegan is incredibly brave!

karen said...

You are amazing! Keep hanging in there. We think of you often. I love the picture of the rooster. Seriously some fun stuff there. Take care.